Took a little hiatus from blogging because I was feeling uninspired and like I had nothing of real importance to say. I still am experiencing that a little bit, and I might make a post soon about where exactly my head has been at the past couple months, but for today I wanted to focus on something a little lighter. 🙂
First of all, this summer is FLYING. It’s really weird because usually I would start to focus on school more during this time of year because the beginning of the school year is getting closer, but now I never have to think about school again… I feel ODD.
I’ve been doing a lot of reflecting and thinking ahead all at the same time these days. It makes sense, considering all the changes that are happening right now. But, I can get into a cycle of letting my thoughts drift away from the present moment a little too much and, as a result, missing out on whatever is happening where I am right now. Lately I’ve found myself looking to the future, trying desperately to figure out what I should be doing next and wondering if/when God is going to bring certain things to me. And somehow at the same time I often catch my thoughts wandering back to the past — where I was at this time last year and dwelling on feelings of nostalgia about how much has changed. I think it’s normal to wonder about the future and to remember the past, but neither of those are places on which I want my mind to be fixated, because neither of those are places where I am right now. And before I know it, where I am now is going to be part of the past too. I don’t want to spend my entire life thinking about anything but where I am in the present moment.
It’s hard to break habits and change thought patterns, but I’ve wanted to be more intentional about focusing on the present (even if the present doesn’t seem super appealing at the moment). I made a list of some of my favorite things about this summer so far, and doing that helped me to see the little things I’ve been able to find joy in during the season I’m in at this very moment. It kinda changed my outlook a little bit. Here’s what I included:
I’ve been doing this so often this summer, and it’s such a simple thing that has become one of my favorite parts of my day when I’m able to do it. I love being able to spend time alone and reflect while driving, and it’s even better at golden hour because it’s so pretty! I always just have a warm, lovin’ life feeling whenever I do it, and I want to have that feeling all the time.
Hear me out. These things are SO GOOD. Had to include it. I’m also the most nostalgic person I’ve ever met, so I’m sure a year from now I’ll drink an oat milk latte and immediately be taken back to the summer after my last semester in college and reminisce on that season of life. For real though, those things are so good. A few places in Nash that have really good ones are Killebrew, Osa, and Restoration Hardware!
Anyone else oddly excited that the trends right now are like, extremely comfy? For all anyone else knows, I wore the biker shorts I have on right now to bed last night. (I did). It’s fashion with literally zero effort. I threw on an old cropped t-shirt with my biker shorts the other day and suddenly I was the embodiment of athleisure. Anyway. This made the list because, as you can tell, I’m truly shook. Biker shorts changed me for the better. Hope this trend sticks around for a while that’s all thanks.
My roommate and I started going to church together last semester, and we’ve kept going together during the summer. Every week I look forward to going with her and laughing and worshipping and learning together. It’s our little routine that I hope we keep up for a long time!
It’s so interesting to be in a place now where I have to balance my time well with my friends. Sometimes I get stressed thinking that I don’t have enough time to see everyone I want to see, but when I think about it in moments like right now when I’m writing about it, I laugh because of how silly it sounds. I feel so blessed to have so many good friends in my life who care about me and want to spend time with me. It’s been such an obvious and abundant answer to the prayers I prayed in my hardest times of loneliness to have the people I have right now. I’ll take the stress of figuring out how to allot my time well any day if it means I get to keep all of these people forever!
I always associate music with specific times in my life, so I like to make playlists that will take me back when I listen a year or two later. This summer so far I’ve been listening to a lot of music my friends have created and I’ve found a lot of music that’s really been speaking to me. Also found some fun jamz here and there. It’s been great.
These really aren’t big things at all. I guess that’s kinda the point.
Life is definitely not always easy and fun, and sometimes it’s harder to find things to find joy in. In so many ways, I’m not at all where I want to be or where I thought I would be at this point. And in so many ways, I wish I had more control over my circumstances in the present moment. But as I sit here and practice gratitude for the little things in my life right now that make me happy, I feel at peace. There are so many things we can miss if we spend too much time focusing on where we would rather be or what we would rather have. Maybe life isn’t about getting to where we desperately want to be, but learning to find the beauty in where we are and realizing that life can still be full even when we’re working towards bigger goals.
What are some things that are making you happy this summer?